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Last week, I was a bit concerned as I wasn’t going to the loo, and because I was bloated. This week I decided to really up my water intake, and it worked for my bowel movements. Still bloated though, gonna have to work on that one.

The flush itself was quite easy to do last week. I think I’m getting use to it. I don’t have scales, and completely forgot to measure myself when I started. I’ll use my old measurements, and measure myself once a month.

I’m running into a problem though, the whey protein is very very expensive (well for me). I can’t afford to keep buying it seems to run out after 2 weeks… The plan is supposed to be for 12 weeks! I have some amazon vouchers, so that will do for the moment, but what to do after? I think I may just make the 3 days all fruit all day, then salad with some protein  like turkey.



Now last weekend, I went to stay with a friend to celebrate her birthday. She’s my longest friend, and our friendship has always involved food! Before my accident, we’d not speak often, but spend a weekend in the year together cooking. So we decided to make all our favourite dishes. By Sunday, I was looking forward to doing the fruit flush!

The days went well, but today (day 3) I’m bloated and constipated. My stomach is distended and achy and I haven’t been to the loo since Tuesday (I started on Wednesday).  Well as I was leaving work, the receptionist lovely girl, gave me a piece of cake for her birthday. I ate it and by the time I got home I was bursting to go! So it seems fruit and veg make me constipated,and fatty stuff make me go? Isn’t it supposed to be the other way round? I remember this happening when I was at work, but I just put it down to working odd hours.

I’m starting to think I have IBS or something, but I don’t wanna give up everything 😦

Apparently apple cider vinegar and honey, along with acidophilus helps, so I’m going to try one more week of the fruit flush and see how it goes. Now I think about it, I may not have had enough water either.  It says no herbal tea when you’re doing the flush, but I might use the fennel and peppermint tea I have in the house as well.

Any other suggestions?

Have you made resolutions this year?

I’ve said that I don’t have any, mainly because resolutions, to me, are associated with things that never get done. I’ve got goals, goals that I will reach, and extend beyond the year. In a couple of positive living articles that I have read, they’ve talked about doing things one at a time, so you can give yourself and the goal the appropriate energy.

I agree as when I have tried to juggle, everything just dropped! I also think that when working lots of things, as you change your goals may change, so may not want to do something any more, but don’t want to stop because you’ve already put work into it.

Obviously there are things that need to be put into place and be worked on, like a budget and finding somewhere else to volunteer, but most of my energy will be focussed on the main goal.

This is probably no surprise, my first goal is my body.

I need to make my body as healthy as I can.

Food wise I’m going to use 3 day fruit flushes to get my weight down. The fruit flush I’m doing is devised by Jay Robb, and for the 1st day, you drink only protein shakes and in the evening you have a huge salad with a piece of protein. On days 2 and 3, you have fruit every 2 hours until the evening when you have a salad and a protein shake. I’ve done it before as one offs and it’s worked, I’ve lost about 7 pounds each time. What also usually happens is that afterwards I’d naturally add more veg to my plate.

In the book it’s suggested that you do this for 12 weeks for a weight loss program, it says that after the initial one where you can lose up to 9 pounds, you should lose about 2 pounds a week. Not much, but I think taking it slow is better anyway. I’m happy with doing it this way because I like the fact you eat a lot of fruit and veg. I don’t weigh myself, so I’m going to be using my clothes as a guide.

I’m also going to start taking turmeric as it’s an natural anti inflammatory which is good for the joints, and is also good for HS too. I can’t take normal ones any more as they affect my stomach.

I’m going to start body brushing. I have cellulite down to my knees. I’m not sure if it does work, but I have the body brush so why not try? Also, I’ve been reading articles on how not to look frumpy in flat shoes, and a few have suggested wearing a slightly shorter length skirt to give the appearance of a longer leg. I wouldn’t do that at the moment because I’m so conscious of it… Actually I did it on New Years Day, and I was uncomfortable.

Positive affirmations in the present. Things like “I am healthy and happy with my weight”. “I am happy that I fit into my old clothes”.

Try osteopathy -There’s a school not too far from my gran’s house. I’m going to get a friend to drop me as I think I may be sore after. This is going to be one of the last things I do, because I need to budget for it first.

Try to work out an exercise routine that fits in with work.

The next goal will be my phobia.

I have a phobia developed from my accident. I’ll be working on it with C.A.T. My psychiatrist recommended it to me, and I like the idea of this kind of therapy because there is a time limit on the sessions, and there’ll be a  goal. I prefer this than going somewhere every week and just talking and talking.

My next goal is work

By the time I get to this, I’ll probably have been sacked from my current job. I intend to start some volunteer work in teaching, and look for some part time work teaching after I leave the company I’m in. This is all I can say for this right now.

I am going to be setting financial goals, but they are basic. Save, save save.

The cough still hasn’t gone. It’s less painful in my back, and for that I’m very very thankful for.

The weekend was horrid. I couldn’t sleep for more than about 3 hours without waking up coughing. My mum had to help me out of the bed to get to the bathroom because I couldn’t do it alone. A friend of mine phoned me at about 6 in the morning after seeing my facebook status update, and I couldn’t even cry properly because it was so painful.

So where’s the positive bit? Well last week I decided that instead of trying to loose weight in the New Year, I wanted to get to my preferred weight before the New Year. I’ve got a dress I want to wear on New Years eve, and have it hanging on my wall as motivation.

I know I can’t exercise everyday, it hurts my back and neck, so have been contemplating different diets, and even fasting. I used to fast once a year before my accident.

I’ve been given a long term course of antibiotics as my HS (note, link may be TMI for some. You may not want to read it if you’re eating/have just eaten) has flared up again, and wanted to get some probiotics to replace the good bacteria the antibiotics will be killing.

I went to Holland and Barrett, and got talking to one of the employees about wanting to lose weight. She first suggested the most expensive thing of course, but when I refused she showed me Tonalin CLA,which I decided to buy. Here’s some information on it.

CLA is a newly recognised supplement derived from natural safflower oil. CLA or Conjugated Linolic Acid is found naturally in a variety of foods. Over the past decade, however, our changing dietary patterns have diminished those foods high in CLA content. Tonalin offers a rich source of conjugated linoleic acid from the oil of the safflower to supplement the diet naturally.

When you consume fat that your body does not need to use for energy, it is absorbed by fat cells with the help of an enzyme called lipoprotein lipase. CLA blocks this enzyme and diverts unused fat to your muscle cells. The CLA then activates another enzyme which helps your muscle to burn this fat, especially during exercise.

That’s why, when used in balance with a healthy diet and regular exercise program, Tonalin® CLA is so effective in helping you lose body fat, and keep it off.

Because it is so effective, Tonalin® CLA can also help eliminate the unhealthy “yo-yoing” pattern of losing and gaining weight. Clinical studies have proven that Tonalin® can prevent fat regain.

Since I’ve had this cough, my body doesn’t want food at all. Even tea is too much so I’ve just been drinking water. It’s like I’m fasting, and I’m loving it. It feels like my system is having a complete rest. I’ve been sleeping, reading, doing the very basic of stretches, and listening to music. When I try and have a conversation I end up in fits of coughs so I’m not answering my phone. I’m in my own little retreat. As I get better, I’m going to continue having just water, then increase my stretches. I think this is going to get me into my New Year’s eve dress!

I gave myself an angel card reading a few weeks back and turned the messages in screen savers. One in particular describes this situation perfectly.

I certainly didn’t expect to lose weight by having a cough!

Negative in positive. Loving it, and thanking God for making it possible.

It’s chucking it down with snow outside. I was supposed to go to work today, but if I’m honest I was nervous about being driven in this weather, so I didn’t go in. I’m so happy that I popped into Lidl yesterday to pick up a few bits. It taught me something new as well.

My hands were really cold because after rooting around for gloves, I could only find the left hand for all 3 pairs of gloves I’ve got. I got a trolley for the support. After putting the things back in the car, I couldn’t bend my fingers to take the trolley coin out, and it ended up falling out and rolling under the trolleys. I’ve been having problems with my hands for a while now. I’ll wake in the morning, and if they are open, I have to rub them for ages to bend. If they are curled when I wake up, I have to pry them up slowly one by one.

Look like my local is definitely now the Sainsbury’s that has the buggys.

Have been doing a lot of work on my mind recently.  Been reading up on staying positive, and working through issues. It’s been quite cathartic and I’m definitely feeling a bit better mentally. I had a flare up last week, and I just stayed in bed, read and slept. No point getting annoyed. That is quite a big change for me.

I’ve also been very honest and have told people when I can’t manage. It seems to have stunned a few people. They are used to me struggling to manage, and saying yes when I should be saying no. It feels odd, and at times I’ve questioned myself – If I’m just being lazy, or whether or not they are going to speak to me after, but you know what? Fuck it. Those who know me, and know how stubborn I can be don’t question it, so anyone else shouldn’t matter really… Mmm, even as I write this, I feel a bit anxious. That mindset is going to take some getting used to.

Volunteering. I’ve given it up. I’m quite sad about it, but I think it’s right thing for me to do. For a start I’ve not been going swimming because I’m too sore/tired to go. I think cutting volunteering will hopefully free up some energy to let me go, I can feel the difference not swimming. It’s quite ironic because I wasn’t sure if it was helping.

Also, the organisation simply isn’t organised, and I found myself going there, and the students weren’t there, or they wouldn’t let me know the level I was teaching so I couldn’t prepare any work specific, and ended up making a whole load of worksheet for all ranges.I got a very sweet email from the co-ordinator who has told me I can come back at any time, and thanking me for the work I had done.

I had to go to the dentist today to get a filling. I had a check up too, and made sure to tell the dentist that my gums bleed on occasion. There are so many adverts saying how bad it is, I made a special point to tell her.

Do you know what she said? Keep brushing!

She said that I have no plaque, tartar or anything like that, so if my gums are bleeding it’s because something has inflamed it and I should just keep brushing until it stops.

I was like  ‘eh?” so no special mouthwash or toothpaste? She was like ‘nahhh, that’s a lot of rubbish’. Imagine that.


Week started off well. I had a list of phone calls to make while I was  on my way to work, and promptly forgot the phone and the list! I’ve started dealing with the legal side of things I’ve been avoiding and made an appointment to see my solicitor next week. He sounded all sweetness and light on the phone. Funny that.


I did a little tidy up today as my room was a mess. It’s very small, so it only takes one thing out of place, then it all goes wrong. I’ve been so tired, I haven’t opened letters, and had just piles of stuff everywhere.

Now it’s looking a bit better, my mind feels clearer. I’ve gone through the paperwork, put things back to where they are supposed to be and just doing that has made me feel a little better. I’ve written a to do list for tomorrow, and have sent off some emails that I should’ve responded to ages ago.

Once I clear out the rubbish and the cups and stuff from my little home-made dressing table, I’m sure I’ll feel even better.

I’m starting this week how I want it to continue!